:-O he's having a baby?!!!
I was gonna blog about shame & regret, but SG told me he's gonna be a proud papa in the fall. I'm completely floored. See, SG was my backup plan...I was really hoping to wear him down into putting a ring on my finger. damn...damn..damn, james!!!!
I don't know if I'd mentioned SG, but I've always thought SG was a hottie. He's sexy in a "I'm intelligent and confident with myself" kinda way. You know, willing to show his flaws, cause he's acknowledged them and KNOWS that he's still a hottie regardless..and even willing to let a few of his insecurities show. A real, true brotha, and a definite life-partner kind of catch. Yes, I'd tried to get at him, but he was never really feeling me like that, and I think he was just too nice to tell me that. So we're really good friends, and I openly lust after him at every opportunity I get...or used to that is. DAMN.
I'm happy for him, and K (the lucky lady). I'd really like to see him settled... I think he'll make an excellent dad, and husband ( 'cause he will one day get married, and he SO obviously cares a lot about her). But I can't front...sweetie or no sweetie, I am a lil jealous. SG was my backup plan. It SO sucks to be me. DAMN.
Ok, so I have a a sweetie...BTW, I do luv u sweetie. But a sista DOES need a backup plan...looks like I'm taking applications again.
Mental note: to all the sistas too. Men's insecurities are greater than ours..they're more sensitive..they feel as strongly and passionately as we do and just try to hide it better. They want the same things that we want, and are hurt just as we are. I have really good guy friends that have taught me SO much about love & lust & life & all those things that should be important to us all, and SG is just one of them. I only wish (regret?) that I'd figured this out earlier in life.
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